So I have been having strong urges for man2man sex. Watch Bi or gay porn all the time (not even interested in Girl/Girl anymore which was always my favorite)
I Fantasize about doing it a lot. But the problem is whenever I do anything I have no feeling involved. It's just so detached. Sucking a guy is not "fun" like it is going down on a woman. Like eating potato chips when your not even hungry "why did I eat that bag"?
I don't find guys attractive like I do woman. After doing anything I am racked with serious guilty and shame then go weeks or months not thinking about it (It used to be years) but then it comes back, that urge. Have a created a negative addiction am I crazy?