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February 16, 2019, 05:23:03 AM
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Broken4life


Hello Ladies and Gentlemen.

I will try not to make this too long and boring, but it’s something I have to get out.
I’ve been separated for 1 year this June, and though I cannot say I want her back... I want my family... if that makes sense.

My wife and I hit it off right away, but after having on and off issues, I came home and got on the computer and found half dressed pictures of her she had sent to someone else. This was after 2 years. She had explained that she felt things were over and that it didn’t matter much. Though I forgave her, and we went to marriage counseling for quite a while, my trust dwindled away slowly over the next 4 years. I became more and more suspicious of everything she did, people she talked to, ways I had not been before.

Because I also suffered from PTSD, depression, and severe anxiety much of my life, I got on yet more medication that would help a lot, but outbursts of anger and distrust still plagued me, though I must add that I never was abusive to her, nor do I drink, do drugs, etc.

It all came to a head with her having to hire a new driver for her company and getting too close. I guess she figured, yet again that it was over, and so she started texting him. Hiding her phone, all the cheating signs. I got fed up one night and told her I wanted to see her phone. She said no, and she had already deleted the messages anyway because they weren’t important. I told her she could choose then right now what she wanted. Our son was 4 and very upset, she said I should go stay with my mother....

Going through deep depression, I checked myself into the hospital and when asked if I would hurt myself, I could only say “I don’t know”.

Sadly during my 6 days there, my wife had sent pictures of my son to my dad of our son. He said it was on a beach, I thought maybe it was the beach we always went to, but when I asked him about the bridge in the background, it wasn’t that beach. She had taken my son to a beach with someone else and his kids to a beach near this other guy’s house... with no concern for me.

Here I am 8 months later, still here waiting on my divorce.

Thinking back, I realized that she has cheated on every boyfriend she’s ever had, and I believe she has sociopathic tendencies, considering her lack of ability to seem to care much... even about our son to be honest.

I now just dtay away from her, and want nothing to do with her, but I have to talk to her about our son. If I could I’d run away, but won’t leave my boy. Now, it’s just a matter of me putting my life back together.

I’ve tried some dating sites and such, but there’s been no real contact. Even friends would be nice, but none of that either.

She is not all to blame, but I never once cheated on her, to me, that’s just a step one should never take.

Advice is welcomed, but as I said... I really just wanted to get all that out.

 

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