Sorry in advance if this gets long. I will try to make it short. One week ago me girlfriend and true best friend of 4 years broke up with me out of the blue. I was totally blindsided. Throughout our relationship I had problems telling her things like “you look beautiful.” Even though she always did. I just have problems sharing my feelings with others. She also is slightly more mature than I am and this caused her to want and break up. She also said she wants to still be friends and we have been

We ended up having to spend the next 4 days alone together for interesting reasons. During these days and the days which have followed I’ve received so many mixed signals. We slept in the same bed and cuddled every night. We would itch and massage each other. We would joke and laugh just like we always had. We went out to eat. If it wasn’t for the fact that we broke up, we had a great time. In the days which have followed we have spent all day texting like we normally do and even have talked on the phone and FaceTimed for hours at a time.

Then there’s the negative signals. She insisted on me getting datings apps so I could cope with the break up. I just have no interest in them. She herself is on them to “fill the void” of me. But she doesn’t want to meet anyone on real life yet. In terms of sex, we didn’t have it. We got close on serval occasions before she would stop us saying “this isn’t a good idea if we want to move on”

I’m just so confused. We are apart right now because she is 3 hours away finishing college and besides the fact that I know she’s talking to other people, it feels like it always has. Part of me just thinks, if I can grow up and become able to share my feelings with her, then she would take me back. I want to fight for her. She has never definitely said there’s no way we ever will get back together. I also haven’t brought it up because as much as I want to beg, I don’t think it will help. Does this relationship have any chance of starting back up??