Hello..

I do not know you personally but I am so sorry your relation ended like that. I've read the whole story and can honestly not believe that he would end it just like that? I cannot imagine it was because of that one bad week? To me it sounds like there were things within him that he has or had not been sharing. One thing is for sure.. he is or was NOT too good for you.. you sound like an amazingly dedicated beautiful person in the heart when I read your story like this.

Please take some comfort in the fact that we are here for you, you are not alone in this world. I do not know what anger you have towards your family or why the person you confide in turns a blind eye.. that is very immature. But I do know family is important.

I'd like to look at my own experience as of late.. I have also created an account for my own breakup. She left me after 5 years and while we were still working things out cheated on me with a guy that had been stalking her for 2 years. We had a love-hate deeply toxic relationship. The feelings were so very intense that I often cried at random moment, under the shower, while cooking, on the sofa, at work.. the relation drained all my energy from my very core. The moment she TEXTED me she cheated on me, I broke down and 2 days later broke contact. All I can say is that it pushed me over a certain edge that I knew was coming.. everyone has their personal problems, personal goals, personal struggles.

For me it has been a month now since i've seen her last time and since 10 december that there is no contact anymore. I also had lots of anger for my family but I managed to work that out.. I felt in a place that I had to break out from and opened up about everything to my parents and sisters. It has helped me an enormous deal as they finally see and realize what I was and am going through and they show me respect, help and understanding. I put great worth in real talk and have around 4-5 best friends that I can always hit up for anything.. day after day I notice I am in great need of talking about my pain and issues. But it helps me.. What the pain is doing to me is that it pushes my limits, it makes me feel so much pain that I feel alive and it helps me to move on. It helps me to open up, my friends tell me I seem more strong and alive than the past years, my parents and sisters are deeply happy I finally talk after all these years, my colleagues know what's up and show understanding as well. I used to be an introvert-introvert, but I have finally left the place where I was too ashamed to talk about it all.. what we feel and go through is real and you should almost scream it out loud. You deserve that.. you are an amazingly beautiful person and you sound very real.. personally I appreciate that so much. Please know I'm thinking of you and I know the type of pain you are dealing with. Please try to confide in to someone.. it has tortured me to never talk and never open up. The pain is very real but it feels so much better to let go..

When the clock hit 00:00 and it was new year I was on my balcony with 2 of my best friends and their girlfriends.. We looked at the fireworks and I started to cry so hard. But they all hugged me and that did so very much to me. If you feel like talking more or reacting please do so.. I'm just trying to relate here and hope I can be of some help.

Don't do whatever it takes to get him back. The human mind is psychologically twisted, you deserve better. Start with listening to your heart and your inner core and see your family and friends and talk. Cry and let it out.. and let me know how it went..

Much love and understanding from a stranger