It's only been a couple days since he dumped me and I'm a mess. I'm barely eating, nauseous, not sleeping well, and my stomach is a mess. We were together for about a year and a half (my shortest relationship), but I really thought he was the one I would spend the rest of my life with. I would always say he was too good for me, and at some point, he agreed. I thought he was perfect and we were rock solid. I had gotten to know his family fairly well and he had met all of my family too. He had been heavily encouraging me to move in with him for months. As I'm just starting a new career, I began searching for jobs where he lives, moved some of my stuff in, and told all my friends I would be moving there. We were so intertwined with each others lives, our families, our future plans, I don't know what to do now. I don't know where to go. I don't have a lot of strong ties to anyone else. I feel lost. And the person I would confide in has decided it's better off not knowing me. I feel alone in this world with only a handful of friends. And it was just so sudden.
Two weeks ago he came to my grad school graduation, he hugged and kissed me and told me how much he loved me and was going to miss me (I was going home for a couple months before moving in with him). Last week was a hard week for us because we were making big decisions about our future and he was calling me out on my anger I have toward my family. I thought we had begun to work through it and a few days ago he said, "I don't think this is going to work." Over the phone. After a year and a half, he calls it because of one bad week? Because of his wishy washy language I put my pride aside and told him I would do anything to make this work. Finally, he manned up and told me it's over. Just like that.
I am crushed because it was so out of the blue and I never expected it and he supposedly loved me. I saw myself spending the rest of my life with him and I knew I would do whatever it took to be with him since I thought he was so amazing. But it wasn't enough.
I'm suffering from random bouts of crying and immense hurt and betrayal from someone I loved deeply. I only hope I can keep it together to study for and pass my test on Saturday, to pick up my things next week, to break the news to all my family and friends, reroute my future plans to live elsewhere, and start a brand new life. Any words of kindness or support or sharing of similar experiences and how you got through them would be appreciated. Wishing everyone happier thoughts.