Hi everyone.

I'm 2 days out of a 2 year relationship and I'm having a hard time dealing with it. We were together almost every day for those 2 years. I haven't cried or anything but I can't eat and my heart is really aching. Like I really FEEL the hurt in my heart and that feeling you get in your stomach when you're hurting.

The last thing he said after our fight and I walked away was "I love you"....he told me all the time that he loved me so I never questioned it but he was really insecure. He was VERY TOXIC...and if you've ever dealt with one of those type of people you know how that was....but I do still love him, sadly.

He wrote me to tell me that he misses me and will love me no matter what and to remember that.

He always blamed me for everything ever wrong in our relationship...he never acknowledged his faults but then today...he finally said "It's not you, it's me". And I don't know how to feel about that.

Has he had time to think about the good woman I was to him?

I'm sure he's with other women now. Is he not hurting at all? Why isn't he asking for forgiveness for treating me so bad when I was the best for him? Will he come back and treat me better? IS HE HURTING?

Do men hurt after breakups? How will I know?

Toxic relationships do usually hurt a lot mainly because of the up an down pattern they follow. This contrast makes the good memories feel a lot more exhilarating making it more painful when the breakup occurs. Take your time and don't rush into anything new because you can actually meet someone great and sabotage the relationship because of the baggage. Trust someone who already made this mistake. The pain will subside but patience is critical no matter how frustrating it may seem

Yes!  That is why I am here.  While every guy shows it differently, there is no question they hurt.

Yeah. They try not to show it and their guy friends tell them to immediately have sex with a random hot chick to get over it too

Sounds like good advice but am struggling to find a random hot chick.... Spent quite a lot of money on several dating sights last week and had 100's of 'offers' but they all turned out to be phoney - everyone just wanted to string me along into a 'chatathlon' so that I could use more and more credits. It sounds as though all these sites are scams targeting vulnerable punters. I thought I was having a genuine conversation with several ladies who appeared very keen on me (and genuine) and I was supposed to meet up for the weekend, but they never gave me any contact details, just wanted to 'get to know me' ONLINE, ie keep chatting (buying more and more credits).

I would love to find a 'random hot chick', but where should I look?

I’d like to hope they do and that breaking up with someone they care about does truly affect them, but I’ve been burnt so badly, I’m too bitter to believe they really do when they’re the ones who end it.