I'm sorry to hear of this confusion. I understand. From my own experience, you need to really think about what is going to make YOU happy and fulfilled. The saying if you set it free amd it comes back to you its yours is sometimes where we need to start. Don't ghost him- maybe just expain how your feeling and state that you deserve to know, be hapoy amd truely loved amd if hes not ready then youre going to let him go and if he decides that he needs you in his life amd you decide at that point that is the right thing to do for you then do it. You may have a few weeks apart and realize youre better off without him. In the meantime- work on self love. Men can mess with out hearts pretty good. Sending love❤