Lets Chat Love
Register An AccountLogin

Author Topic: I need help navigating a weird situation with my ex

March 17, 2020, 04:04:28 PM
Read 531 times
Offline

anon051300


Let me preface with this: up until the end of this past summer, I had no experience with girls at all. Growing up, I was pretty petrified of talking to girls and have some social anxiety issues, even though finding a girlfriend has always appealed to me. When I meet a girl that I like, I also have a tendency to catch really strong emotions and get hung up on that girl for a while, which often puts me in tough situations. But, as of the last couple years, I have been getting better socially, been working out often and I've been told that I've been glowing up.

At the end of the summer, I met a girl who worked at the same camp as me (both 19). Lets call her K. We were always messaging each other, we got to bump into each other a few times a day and went on three really enjoyable dates. As someone with high standards and no luck, I didn't think I would get involved with anyone who would be up to my standards, so I was over the moon to be with a girl that I was genuinely developing such strong feelings for in such a short period of time. I also found out that K hadn't ever been in a relationship either which made me feel really good about being her first. She wanted to take things slow because of that and also because we would live in different cities for school. The school year is where things got tricky.

K went to school for dance and also made it onto the dance team, which required her to have full day practices on Sundays. She was only free on Saturdays and she was also very social and had a lot of friends, so I only got to see her during a break from school. We still messaged and snapped each other every day, but we both started realizing how difficult this was to stay together. We recognized that we wanted a relationship that was based on seeing each other often and making new memories together, but at the same time, we had such strong feelings for each other. We decided to take a break and we said that in the summer we should get back on track, while still keeping in contact. While we never made any explicit agreement, I was certain that no matter what, I would want to be with her in the summer, and I thought she felt the same. After all, I would literally get the warmest feeling every time I thought about her and she told me some things that made me feel incredible, like how I was the sweetest and most genuine guy she's met and that I was too good to let go after we decided to take a break in November.

And so we took a break, still sending snaps daily and messages every so often. I was still convinced that we would end up together in the summer and so I still thought about K all the time. When winter break came around, I thought I would be able to hang out with K at some point. However, she wasn't being as responsive to me which I thought was a little weird. On Christmas, my dog was tragically and shockingly killed which was devastating. K sent me very supportive messages and aside from anything related to my dog, I felt reassured about K. We planned to hang out about a week later, but she told me she realized last minute that she was busy and had to cancel and I was eventually back living at school.
Since we went on break, I realized a few things. As long as K was in the picture, I didn't want anyone else. She was the only girl I thought about and I would even reject girls that approached me for something casual because I knew I'd just be thinking about K the entire time. After talking about it to my friend, I decided to tell K that I wanted to hold out for her until the summer. I was absolutely destroyed when she responded that she had met someone else and couldn't promise anything about the summer, even though she said she still cared about me. It was a feeling that I would never forget. I fell into a depression after this, and I felt worse about myself then ever before. I was so shocked and upset that we might never get to experience the relationship I was fantasizing about for so long. I didn't know anything about the new guy or the nature of the relationship but it killed me nonetheless. I couldn't stop thinking about it for so long and it really affected my life and my grades. No matter what my family, friends and wellness consultant said, I still felt broken as if I would never be happy like I was with K again. But things did get better. Over time, my mental health improved. Eventually, I met another girl, P. P was really attractive and seemed really smart and interesting but she was much less responsive than K ever was. Eventually, I met up with P, but she wasn't who I was hoping for. She was a nice girl, but she clearly was looking for a casual relationship. We ended up going farther physically than I did with K, but I honestly didn't care much for that experience and we never saw each other again. Although being with another girl was a confidence boost, it made me realize how rare the feelings I had for K were. As someone who hadn't been in a prior relationship when I really wanted to, I had a theory that my feelings for K were so strong because of the fact that I wanted a relationship so badly. After this, I realized that I genuinely did fall really hard for K and I began thinking about her much more, which absolutely sucked.

Recently, the COVID-19 pandemic caused in-person lectures to end at my school, and so everyone went home, probably until classes start in fall. So now, I am probably home for the summer and I still feel awful about this situation and I didn't realize how difficult it would be to get over this. I know I still have strong feelings for K and if I could get back together with her, I would be beyond happy. I'd never been upset at her for seeing someone else; we were both single and never said anything about holding out for each other. I genuinely believe if she was single, she would want to see me again, but I have no idea if she is because after K broke the news to me, I told her I needed to unfollow her on social media because I knew seeing any pictures with her and a guy who isn't me would kill me. In late February, I was out with a friend who asked me if I was still talking to K. My friend knows K and follows her on social media, and so this might mean that she hasn't posted anything with any guy, but I know that's nowhere near enough information.

So this is the situation I am in now. I can ask my friend to verify if K has posted anything about a guy, but beyond that, I don't know what to do. Obviously, I can talk to K and find out if she's single, but what if she's not? Would I give up at that point and hope she's single some other time? Should I try to convince her that she would be happier with me? Should I be upset at her for putting me in this position? Do I need to forget about her completely and try to move on (though I've been trying that)? I would even do some big romantic gesture like write her a song (I can put together a decent one), but I'm not sure if that would be weird. The fact that we never got a real chance to be in a real relationship also plays into this; if she's been in a committed relationship for months, it would be really hard to convince her that to leave that for me, no matter how good our start was. I just don't know what to do and feel like I can't fully get my life back on track without some kind of closure.

March 18, 2020, 06:15:56 AM
Reply #1
Offline

LilyPouille


Hi anon051300!

I fully understand your situation and in reality there is not a lot of option (from my point of view):

what we know --> you are still in love with K and you tried to forget her at some point, but you can't.

I think if you tell her how you feel (you still you love her and want to develop a real relationship) and ask her how she feels about the situation. What does she want, is she in love with the other guy? I think honesty is primary if you want to really get better and move on. You get everything out of your chest and you go from there.
I have to tell you, in the summer holidays, you can meet the perfect guy/girl and then realise it won't match in your real life and routine. Maybe you are still attached to the fact of being in love, and the different feelings you can feel. You tried to feel the same with P. but that's normal to not feel the feeling, it's not the same person. Some love last the time of a summer but it doesn't mean it was meaningless.

With love,

Lily

Keep us posted!
Live. Just live.

April 02, 2020, 06:12:18 AM
Reply #2
Offline

Are you a subscriber to W


As we all know, the world is at risk from disease. People are afraid to go out without masks
Even if they just don't go out. Then something went wrong. The market is facing a serious crisis.
There is a problem, how do we solve it?
Those who have stocked before or during this time will be the winners
Because the epidemic has been brought under control
When the day comes, the desire to indulge in buying is about to erupt.
So we can sell better or better
We, 9020 Company, are a company dedicated to various practical products for life for many years
Through our own raw materials factory, we can ensure that we can catch up with the delivery time
In addition, we also produce gauze masks, such as disposable medical surgical masks, civilian masks, 3-layer medical surgical masks, etc.
If you are interested, please feel free to contact me: dashiki52@gmail.com

 

Related Topics

  Subject / Started by Replies Last post
2 Replies
1407 Views
Last post December 30, 2018, 10:21:16 PM
by Esthrala
8 Replies
2294 Views
Last post July 15, 2019, 01:54:24 AM
by Brenda W
1 Replies
1039 Views
Last post March 04, 2019, 09:07:45 PM
by winstonjack
1 Replies
866 Views
Last post April 06, 2019, 04:40:47 PM
by Cecil_Opal
0 Replies
496 Views
Last post October 06, 2019, 12:26:25 AM
by RetroScorpio
0 Replies
634 Views
Last post November 03, 2019, 08:28:03 AM
by lumpy_secret
5 Replies
956 Views
Last post December 06, 2019, 06:04:54 PM
by Captain Black
13 Replies
2537 Views
Last post January 07, 2020, 05:15:19 PM
by Tony
0 Replies
436 Views
Last post December 29, 2019, 06:55:35 PM
by 85percent
2 Replies
695 Views
Last post January 13, 2020, 08:42:16 AM
by ScarletOHara
1 Replies
533 Views
Last post February 15, 2020, 11:47:19 PM
by arena
3 Replies
667 Views
Last post April 27, 2020, 08:50:59 PM
by johnsmithh22