We know each other for 4 years, we never truly initiated a romantic relationship, i have strong feeling for her, when she decides to leave i feel so down and i beg her to come back, but when she seems like accepting the idea of starting a romantic relationship i feel hesitant and not sure, i know this is weird and i don't like myself for this, now i'm having my last chance with her, either i start an intimate relationship or she will end our communication forever.  i don't know how to handle my feeling of not being sure, The last thing i wanna do in earth is to broke this girl's heart, but i also cannot give up on her.